just a flashback...

i wonder, wat is friendship anyway? do we hv to know each other for a real long time before we acknowledged ourselves? the ones who know u inside out and be there for u? appreciate the things u do and treasure u? if u ask me, i shall say i hv lots and lots of frens out there, who luv me when they r right infront of me. yeah, lots of them. sad enough, but that's life. these r e ppl i dun regret not having them in my life. even though i do know them for long yrs.. i guess they had entertained me well enough to fit those yrs.. i had fun though :)

i hv to admit... it was tough putting up those fake smile infront of them.. i wish i dun hv to, but sometimes u gotta see wats around u n u dun wish to mess it up. gosh, dats tough.. but being myself, i cant hide it. im not gd at that. once i hate u, means i really hate u. doesnt matter where or to whom those smiles are for. one thing for sure, it wasnt for u..

anyway, i've decided not to help anyone, i mean those ungrateful bratz who will nvr remember wat u did for them. once they got wat they wanted and they r on their own, they'll forget where they hv gotten all dat frm.... im not surprised even if they dun remember my name.
the only thing dat surprises me was that, they can even look up to my frens.. regardless watever it was for... MY FRENS. the ones i had introduced them to... i guess i gotta create one "frens-giving-day" for these ppl. gosh, they really exist. disgusting. worst of all, a person i regard as my own blood, was being approached too... my goodness.. after hearing all those criticisms?? i pity u bro, u keep burning ur own self thru those lights....

lesson learnt for me. only fools will help ppl like them. it was dat soft part inside of me dat had me those mistakes. NO MORE. and pls, if u read this my dear ex-fren, i hope u'll find ur own frens n pls be out of my circle. shame on u.. my job is done and i've helped enough.
im so glad i dun hv to feel sad saying this out to someone i've known for quite a long time.
yes, we did hv our problems solved at first, but as time goes by, i felt disgusted. dun U have any other frens than having to cling on to mine? get a life. n dun even dream of talking behind my back. i'll know. MY FRENS. remember? :)

i had my say, period. so stay away, n i will not mess up ur gd life.

to my maling, im glad we make it out. it was a fun nightout.... will post the pics soon.

lastly, gd luck to seni dayung for e upcoming comp. i hv my closest ones in it and i hope they'll put up a gd show. i wish i can turn up, provided my work's done. weekend means business....

im missing my sis nana here... i'll try my best to turn up to watch e band one of e days... really sorry sis... hugs.

as for chippy, looking forward for ur treat ;)