childhood therapy

lastnight i had my chikadees, chicken rings and tapioca crisp. the junkies which reminds me of my childhood. wish i could be back to the gd old days. need a ride anyone?

birthday wish..



Happy Birthday To U. May U Achieve All U Want In Life And Live Happily With Ur Loved Ones. Wishing U All The Best In Life, Stay Happy And Smile Always ;)
Tonight Is Ur Special Nite. Official Celebration Starts From Midnight. Enjoy It ;)

Here's From Me To U, Naz.. May U Live Ur Life To The Fullest! Treasure The People Around You. Its Full Of Love.. Take Care, Enjoy Ur Special Day ;)



Not forgetin a gd fren of mine, also celebratin her birthday tomorrow. Happy Birthday To U, Maling. honestly, although its been sometime we didnt meet, i believe our friendship still stays intact. i miss u loads and i hope u'll succeed in life. probably we'll meet someday. *hugs*

semoga dipanjangkan usia dan dimurahkan rezeki, insyallah. take care maling (yati).





got dis pic frm maling's photo gallery..totally make me laughed and i remember e fun we had. i'll try and arrange for another outing one day. dis was taken sometime ago when we went out for karaokeing at cashstudio, apollo centre. me, my bro and dino buddy..



and dis one too.. look at my bro and dino, whereas i was focused in gettin e shot. hee.. dis really makin me missing u more, maling.



to u peeps, enjoy ur weekend. might be goin malacca with sis dis sunday. still considering coz i may have loads of work to do. but i love kampong life thou.. guess i really need another getaway. we'll see how dis weekend.

i realised i was lucky enough to have gotten back wat i'd lost. due to my ego and foolish act in e past, i nearly lost all those who had treasured me and e friendship. i thought e world was just for me and him. i had left almost everyone behind and chose to be in my own little fantasy world. luckily now im back to where i was from and will never repeat dat stupid mistake again. im thankful all of u guys are still with me. thanks for e love and friendship. no more of me leaving u guys behind..never.

big headache..

i have yet to decide which car im gettin.. sadly, my 1st choice i gave it a miss. i dun wanna be hailed out there by e roadside. sigh.. there goes my airwave. although im in this business, i realised that buying a car is more a headache than selling one. probably im just being choosy but i guess my choice of brand will be Honda. hopefully i'll make my decision soon..

and by e way, here's to u..



and huney, im lovin u.



another thing, dis is to someone i care e most.
i know u'll be readin dis.. remember dat u still plays a big part in my life and i care a lot for u.. i really do.



i had a tough time searchin for e montblanc ciggie case and now it had been stolen. sigh.. i hope u did not lose e card thou..

the friendship..

finally i offered for it. somethin which i ever told myself it can never be. sad? i guess the pain was too much till i had nothin left except for this. i can never hate coz i had learn to treasure.

Hum Tum ( You And I)..

the first handshake..

the hat..

the "lollypop war"..

the "cigarette-hole" on the dress..

the countdown..

the 2-dollars cheeseburger..

the ya-kun kaya..

the papa puffs..

the scrapbook..

the proposal..

battle against the odds..

and finally,

the story has come to an end.

i've decided to leave my fantasy world and drop dwn to reality..

now, what's my plan next? workout!! hee.. yup! gotta lose some weight.

anyway, im lovin dis photo of us. sorry u had to wake up frm ur sleep just for dis shot. hehe.. im really bad!
thanks for being such a sweetheart. its tough for me but i luv ur heart. and i know u've been there for me. most importantly, ur behind me whether im right or wrong. i truly appreciate that.
as for now, i dun wish to see whats there ahead of me. probably e past fear has yet to leave. all i can say is that, im gonna live each day at a time, be happy and hopefully, able to fulfil all my dreams. thanks for bringin back the smile on my face ;)

hardest thing in life..

have u ever felt like turning back time when u just simply cant? time dun wait for u.
and having to let go of e past and memories were the hardest thing i could ever do.
have u ever think of those toughest time i went thru?
have u ever think of those times where i stood by u and not letting it go?
have u ever think of those times when i left everythin behind just for u?
fought for u even in my handicapped state..
hangin on tight to the loosen string till i was forced to let go at e very last thread..
have u even try to imagine how i suffered each day, every secs?
have u ever waited for someone like i do?
have u ever even love someone like i do?

have u caught me being with someone else? never.
u just officially did.

only lastnight i found the answer. it did surprised me but thank u, coz e lie turns my life better. i admit i cried e moment i read dat and i wonder when these tears will ever stop?
sad i am, but do i have a choice? i've already made one. i got this frm someone u know and it goes like this..

"diana, u r a fighter and i respect and salute u for that. even though u lost e battle, in my eyes, u won e war."

i dun need to be a winner in others' eyes. but i cant help it if it blinded urs.
the happiness u have now may have came within urself..or probably my prayers had been answered?
no regrets i shall say.. cos we r better off this way.



now im craving for this...no alcohol pls.



or a hug will be much better ;)



and by e way, i got to know dis extremely cool blog frm my sis. among all other blogs i have read or stumbled upon to, i believe dis is e best one i've ever visited. i wonder how come some people just cant understand his entries and thinks dat he sux. well honestly, i think he rocks! u have to be true to urself and i believe all his entries simply do MAKE SENSE.
wanna chk it out? here u go..

http://www.thatbloodycritic.blogspot.com/

updates!!!

first of all i wanna thank all those who had given me e trust to test drive their cars. thanks a million!! especially to U. dat car had left me loads of memories and i didnt think i'll be seating at e driver's seat one day. thanks for enduring with me with e directions, parkings and stuffs, all e way till morning. i dun deny i felt a bit awkward especially after we didnt meet for quite sometime with all e past shit and all. but at e end of e day, we know wat our hearts are made of no matter wat mistakes we had done. i've put e past behind me although i was truly disappointed in e first place. and surprisingly, we got e same baju kurung colour dis yr. sigh..

anyway, i hope everyone is enjoying their hari raya..especially to those who still get duit raya. dun forget to save up! here's some pics of my raya outing with family.

my family..





e one i talked abt.. my peachy pink baju kurung. nice? ;p



my fav.. turqoise blue. my 1st day baju raya ;)



dun ask me.. i'd rather hide my dimples. gosh how can i stand havin those shots of same angle? duhh!!

finally i made it! alhamdullilah.. should have got it long time back if i didnt give up halfway. but most importantly now, i can drive out legally. hee.. finally got e chance to feel Murano. yeah!!

2 more days to go. Here's wishing all muslims especially my loved ones, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin. Sesiapa yang mengenal diri ini, harap halalkan makan dan minum serta maafkan segala salah dan silap jika ada.
To those whom i might have offended in any way, do forgive me and lets put all the past behind us. Let's BE HAPPY ;)
Holidays coming..ENJOY!!!



more updates..

had our karaoke session last night while waitin for abg fairoz to finish work. another thing, sis gave me her blessings. ermm, we'll just see how it goes. as for now, im loving each day of mine ;)

rockers in the house.



want me to be honest? i love his voice although he did surprised me..hee. he can really sing ;)

a visit to thumper again last sunday with my sis. the yummie oreo milkshake kept me coming there besides e band. hee.. love it so much.
and as usual, they will call up sis to jamm with them. but this time, i was being called up too. to be honest, unlike other bands i had jammed with, i dare not with this one. e reason is because my so called idol is in it. hee..yup, its zul. he's a true rockstar to me. damn good voice!
i can feel my whole body shaking as they pulled me up on stage. and i guess i suck dat nite..haa!

sis had a duet with hazrul. it was superb. they sang 'if i aint got you'. it was my fav song and hazrul sang it damn well. will definitely request for that e next time i go.



duet with sis..



he reminds me of my late bestfren whenever i see him. i remembered i had to sing for her his song 'kau segalanya' almost everyday. she ever told me dis.."if only i have e chance to meet hazrul in person, it'll be great!" and dat chance never come by. it was me instead who get to meet him. so whenever i see hazrul, especially when he sings on stage, i really feel damn sad. how i wish my bestfren was next to me.

me and hazrul.. keeping my tears inside. really..



my true rockstar..hee.



last monday sis had booked a chalet, just for one night at pasir ris since four of us were not workin dat day. my buddy dinoh dropby for awhile dat night even though he was really tired coz i forced him to! haa!! "jiwa members" like wat he always taught me..hehehe.. ;p

four of us played monopoly..last two in stand were me and abg fairoz. look at his money and mine..i guess it pretty obvious and i dun have to elaborate further on wat happened next. bluek!!

great relief..

it was a tough week for me but with much support and trust, we managed to overcome it together. alhamdullilah..
and it wasnt a sacrifice, but somethin which i think its my duty to be able to do my bit. the love and trust were somethin no money can buy. u r just priceless :)
u dun owe me anythin, remember dat.

disappointment..

dis is actually another issue..a big lesson learnt but somethin which wasnt expected. it definitely proven somethin which i'll remember for lifetime and never to let the unnecessities affect me. i dun deny dat im not strong enough to overcome such issues but things happened and we just gotta let it go when its time to. nope, its not abt any love stories here by e way..
it was really a sad thing to me and i doubt things will remain e same again. i dun understand why it got ruined whereas it should be protected and treasured. like wat my sis said, be proffesional abt it coz this is life. sometimes it can be cruel. so being professional like i should, i shall carry on with my post then.. ;)

for now, i shall put aside all this sadness and stuffs. although it was a pretty tough week, happiness does shine at me. last wed, three of us, checkin out e gotham penthouse ( previously jamz 2000). gosh it was so history. hee..
it wasnt for clubbing sake actually. since we r always at pump room, we decided to walk around clarke quay and see wat else they got around there. gotham was cool although those hunks performin on stage didnt really 'excite' me like other babes do. to be honest, i prefer to just enjoy my pool game with my sis there and listenin to e R&B music...haa!! so here's e pics of us.





me cam-whoring in my room before the nite-out.









fierce or not? hee..







me and naz..at muddys last night.. thanks for e writings babe..touchin ;)